I'm not sure if a lot of people think i'm dead because i didn't update this for 3 months, i'm sure it is a disapointment for some of you that i'm still exist. The main reason for this is i don't have time to update this, but the reason behind all of this is....i don't know what to write and..who will really care what i'm writing here?
Is been a long time i write something long excluding the work throughout the whole sem. It looks like the same me for these few months but actaully i'm no longer the guy i'm been during christmas. After the alone week in spring, i start to think about myself as a whole. Even though there aren't anything happen during the week, the way i think is way different. Starting to think anything in the negative side, and no hope with no aim.....
Yea...i'm mentally ill...but there's nothing i can do about it, i tried not to think this way, but the world makes me to think this way. My hard work won't turn to be good, i'm a devil and bad person, i'm alone even i try to be with everyone. What can I do? trust? i just believe what i'm looking at now.
Maybe is not the first time i wrote this but i guess...i'll live alone with myself, thinking for myself....why should i think of others? there's no one will care what i do..do u think so?
who cares..I might laugh at myself thinking this way a few years later, maybe i just agree no more about what i was thinking now. When i came back and my mom talking about my future wife and stuff...i just can laugh in my heart that this is no longer necessary to make up the requirements, since i have no friends and no love....everyone has it doesn't mean your deserve to have it, just like people having no food and education.
I have a message for you, yea, if you get or even going to read this, the good good friend i know in icq for years and feel anyry about the message i sent to you in the christmas period, I don't know if your blocking me or delete my name from the list or whatever, I might use the wrong wording and make you sick about it, i just hope u at least reply me here.....i'm just want to be serious about friends and i'm treasuring about what we did, i hope we can be friends again, but i hope you will treasure the same way as me and if you don't reply, either you read this or not, just good luck on ur a-levels and wish u the best of luck in everything..Thank you. | 
Lifetime
Already got a lot of work in the engineering design class, meeting at least once a week..ai.....and test next week....damn..
Wish you all have a great bday and valentines coming too.....have fun on that day too.....no difference for me..who cares?